Bad Credit Girl

I was reading the Date Girl Diaries’ Blog today, I really like the way this girl writes. I think I’ve already said that it’s not easy for me to get connected with my emotions…It’s easier for me to describe my interests (like shopping!!!) than my feelings. So I enjoy when I find someone who can talk in an open way about emotions.

Of course I’m talking about emotions like being in love… not emotions like “I got that bag I wanted to!” (I think I have no problem with those ones!!!)

How is it like to be in love?? I mean really in love…Is it true that you know you’ve found the right one??? Is it like “hmm I know it’s you”??? or it’s more like you hope that person to be the one?? How in the world you get to know that!!!

Why that feeling thing is so difficult??? I know (and Trust me, I do) when I want something to be mine (talking about material things) and when I buy something I usually love it forever. Sure, I’ve made one or two bad elections as everyone did, but just that. One or two. I wouldn’t like my sentimental life to be like that, I want to find the right person, just once, close the deal once and forever! (of course I want to have fun in my life, but today I’m talking about the real love!!)

But how do you know? how can you find “the one” without making mistakes? how do people do??’ How will I know when I do?

I couldn’t said that this day had been a totally awful day, until I got home and I found that huge mountain of paperwork that I got myself yesterday (this morning I woke up thinking that had jut been a bad dream … but no!)

I have just arrived, and I am looking somewhere into myself, a little desire to continue working … of course, at home with a good coffee and some music the idea does not sound so bad, anyway … with or without music it’s still work =(

Even when the idea was pretty stupid, I think that gave me extra points with my boss. If I keep behaving this way, perhaps the salary raise is not that far away in my destiny.

I think I’ll spend the rest of the day just working… well that if I can resist the temptation of going out for a little shopping!

I know, I know! I should focus on one thing at time. “Sometimes you have to do what you are supposed to do”… But it is sooo difficult when you live in a city like this where you have hundreds of thing to buy everywhere you look at!!! (It’s even more difficult for a person like me, who loves shopping!!!)

But, ok, I think I’ll follow the responsible person who lives in me (and I barely listen to!) and I’ll finish this. Then I’ll go to buy something to renew my energies!!!

As I supposed, being the last day of the month today was the most agitated day at work. My boss couldn’t stop shouting and running from side to side, controlling everyone’s tasks and adding tons of paperwork to every poor soul who had the bad luck to have already finished what they had been assigned.

At first, she didn’t realize that I could barely emit any sound. Until the phone rang and I had to ask Alice (Alice is another secretary) to answer for me. That’s when my boss went white, then red…then green. I thought she was going to jump out the window and start running enraged through the streets…

But it didn’t happen. She looked at me and said, I hope you’ve had A LOT of fun in your weekend and losing your voice has not been in vain, then she locked in her office and we could listen to her laughing like a crazy. That’s when I got scared. It is totally normal for her to shout, banging the doors and even not to say a single word throughout the day. But laughing? That is not something that someone will count within her repertoire of furious actions … “this woman had lost her last screw” I thought and I realized that situation was going to be more than bad for all of us…

So I decided to save the day. Quietly, I slipped out of the office, and made my way back to Starbucks (I say back cause I had already been there in the morning!) I waited forever in the row, took courage… And joined that group of stupid people carrying more coffees, than they should (of course, first and last time I did it. It was the most awful thing walking down the street in that way!) Back to the office as an out of season Santa Claus, I began to distribute the drinks among the crazy staff.

I left my boss’ as the last… I had to gather courage again and knock at her door. She replied with something like a growl and I dared to come in … With a calm that I was far away to feel, I gave her the extra giant coffee (which unfortunately in Starbucks hadn’t agree to fulfill with a bottle of whisky) and I offered to help in whatever it was necessary.

My advice? Don’t you ever happen to do this! Apparently the cafe served and day went better … But, cause of my sincere offer (I wonder what in the world had made such a brilliant idea come to my mind…), I had to bring work home, and I think I will be handling it until Christmas!

What a night we had last night!!! We danced till our feet were broken. It has been a while since having that much fun!!!

My black camisole was a sensation (it has a very low back and it got many many glances!!!) and with those jeans, I felt as a Star again…

Veronica didn’t say a word about her promotion and/or pay raise. She was completely focused talking about her new shoes, so I think she must have forgotten to remind us that she is going to be a millionaire… Just kidding, she has never said that (anyway, I can tell I would hate that happening!!!)

We couldn’t stop talking even when the music was so loud, now I regret about that. My voice is almost gone by now and I think it’ll get worse.

I won’t go out this afternoon but will try to put this house in order instead. When I look all the things I should have done here this week and I haven’t, I come to think again about how is it possible that a day is never enough. I have to clean the house, and there are also tons of clothes to wash. I hate doing laundry (I think that’s why I’m always buying new clothes!!!).

If I manage to put this place in order, I think I’ll go bed early tonight…I’ll order some Chinese food (maybe Greek) and will eat in bed watching TV. Then, tomorrow will be a funny “no voice” day at work…

My boss will have to find somebody else to take care of the phone…I bet she is going to love that!!!

We are going to Sugar!!! I don’t know how could I forgot about their Fashion Fridays. I got a mail about it like a month ago and I saved it to my favorites’ folder then I must have forgotten it was there…Anyway, I’ve just found it and have already got us into the guest’s list for tonight.

I can’t believe how mad I was this whole week. I couldn’t almost enjoy doing shopping (said “almost”, cause deeply inside, I know I did enjoy it!)

But, as I was hoping, (I think) I’ve already over passed the madness and now I feel like me again. I have this gorgeous outfit to wear tonight, I’ve chosen a great place to go, and if tonight we happen to have a good time, my friends are going to love me (even more if that’s possible!!)

Kevin’s assistant called me last night and said that an appointment for the afternoon had been canceled so I could go later if I would like. I couldn’t believe how lucky I was!!! I was thinking that this morning I would have to wake up earlier to go to the beauty salon before going to work. Changing my appointment meant two extra hours of sleeping (which is great if you are going dancing in the night!!) and two more hours in bed meant a big smile this morning.

I was so happy that I didn’t mind to wait forever at Starbucks to get my coffee. I didn’t even care about my boss being rude all day cause we are getting closer to the end of the month and many things haven’t been done yet (as every month).

Well, I’ll stop talking (or writing, whatever) and I’m going to take my way to Kevin’s. Tonight, I’m sure is going to be a great night!!!!

I’m still upset but I won’t let that little thing ruin my weekend. I’ve stopped at Neiman Marcus (I’m still in love with my new credit card!) and got this wonderful Camisole, and a very sexy pair of Rock and Republic jeans.

I’ve focused on having an excellent weekend and called the girls to make plans for tomorrow night. I feel like dancing (it’s great to remove bad feelings!!) and they loved the idea, so I’m in charge to choose the place.

I called Kevin and asked for an intensive hair, makeup, hands and feet session. He made an exception (you have to call with at least two days of time) and I’ll go by tomorrow morning.

It’s amazing how buying new clothes and the idea of a complete beauty session can put a new smile on my face… I feel very excited about tomorrow, it’s been a long time since we last went dancing!!!

As I already know what I’m going to wear and the rest of my person will be in Kevin’s hands tomorrow, I’ll dedicate this day to solve the missing detail… Where are we going to go!

I’m still very disappointed on what had happened yesterday. I was just looking for something interesting and I’ve found this “diary of a personal shopper” blogspot. I’ve been reading it for a while, I really like the way she writes, she seems to be very emotional when talking about things she likes.

That is a bit hard to do for me, I can’t always get connected to my emotional side. As it happened yesterday. I was so mad at Veronica’s promotion than I couldn’t almost enjoy my friend’s happiness. It’s curious the way minds work, you can only concentrate in one feeling at the time, even when you have many of them on the same situation…and the one you get focused on, gets to cover the other feelings you may be having in that moment.

Good Girl talks about shopping and how it helps her when she feels sad. Well, I totally agree, shopping is a great therapy for me, it can heal almost any wound in my heart… but this blog had also open a wound… I have just discovered that I’ve missed the Luxe Life Event in Los Angeles…now the only thing left to me is crying.

And write down the eye4style link so it won’t happen to me again!!!

Veronica called me last night, she said she had something huge to tell us and she would like to go for coffee this afternoon. It was a different plan for an usually boring weekday, so we decided to meet at Starbucks.

We got there, we waited for ages to order, and once I had my Double Chocolaty Chip Frappuccino, and we were able to find a table, we waited to hear that incredible thing that she had to tell us…

I just couldn’t believe it!!! She had just been promoted… and with this huge pay raise… my smile went frozen and I couldn’t find any word to say…I was getting desperate cause all of them were looking at me waiting to hear what I will say.

I was so mad… hundreds of things came to my mind… why was she getting what I have always wanted?? Why should I be able to show happiness when she is getting what I would like to get??? I could finally congratulate her, and even when I was horribly mad, I was sincere. I can’t forget she is my friend and besides the situation, I’m happy with her progress. But I still can’t stop thinking about it…how do I do to not let this to be personal??

I don’t want to envy her, but I can’t help it…I know this is not correct, but how can I control my feelings??? (Thanks god I’ve never told my friends about this blog!!!)

And with a huge pay raise!!! I hate this!!! Well, now I come up to think about it…maybe that raise is not so huge…

Who am I trying to lie to…it has to be huge… he has already been doing shopping! Said she should look “even more professional now” so her wardrobe had to be renewed.

Here I go again… I’m happy, then mad, then happy again…then really mad!!! How do people do to handle these mixed emotions??? I hope by the weekend I’ll be me again…

I was decided to get that Kooba golden bag… so I walked into every store in my way back home.

As I couldn’t find it, I intended to order it online as soon as I got here!!!

Even Rihana got one! Take a look here: Kooba Black Heather Bag as seen on Rihanna

Shopalicious linked the bag from Singer22, so I got into that web page to order it…I was fully surprised, I’ve found a lot of great offers, and the golden bag was there, of course!

They have this “Celebrity Picks” section, in which you can see (and buy) items that had appeared in different magazines and had also been chose by celebrities.

I’ve just ordered my bag (they also provide you with free shipping service if you spend over $100!!) and will keep looking at this site for a while…I may decide to purchase something else!!!

It was so difficult to get home today… traffic was awful and it took me forever driving all the way here (and this time I wasn’t late on purpose!!!)

To remove the bad mood I took a shower, made coffee, and started looking what’s new on the Internet… that blog I read yesterday left me wanting more!!

I’ve found this spectacular blog, shopalicious, where you can find everything you would like to buy… I’ve also found things that I actually didn’t knew I wanted to buy until I saw them! There are hundreds of new arrivals, offers, they also have different prices categories so you can decide what to shop for, based on how much you are willing to spend!

Shopalicious starts saying “Need some retail therapy?” and they have this beautiful bag as their first image…facing that question, I had automatically said… well, yes I do!!!!

I’ve been checking many of its categories so far and I’ve started a new “things to buy” list… yes, I know…I can’t help myself…but it’s just… I love shopping!!!